D. i just dont understand...
D, so, you're probably not going to read this, and even if you do, I probably wont hear anything from you. but I really just cant keep everything bottled up anymore. I just don't get why things ended the way that they did, I don't understand why. im sorry if me wanting to see you and help you while you were going through something seemed "clingy" but for you to just totally cut me off, I didn't know what to do. the way we connected, was incredible, we could talk for hours and not run out of things to say. I have never felt the same way about anyone else before. we got along great. or so I thought, maybe I just fell for another bunch of . you said you wouldn't ever do to me what you did, I guess I am just a fool for believing it. honestly I wish I could hate you, it might make things easier. but the truth is I am in love with you. I simply cant just forget about you. the short time we had together changed me for the better. and that's probably why I am hurting so much inside. I wish you would just talk to me.. I miss you, and your LO. I think about you always. I wish we could just pick up where we left off, or I had some closure of some kind. I thought when I found you, I was the luckiest person in the world. that my search was finally over. I just wish I knew why, I know its pathetic, and I know that writing this sweet older women searching sex dating sexy single women will get me no where. but theres so many things I felt were left unsaid. so yeah.. I miss you, and I don't think I will ever forget about you. if you do actually want to talk to me, you know how to find me.. Christmas, and happy birthday. "compare lessons are easily done once you've, had a taste of, perfection, like an hanging from a tree, I picked the ripest one, I still, got a seed, you said move on where do I go? I guess second best is all I will know."